Purpose to Life

We watched Julie & Julia this weekend and it got me to thinking about what sort of project I would want to take up. Ultimately I decided that I'm too ADD to figure it out. Since I was in high school (at least) I wanted to take excellent photos. However, a photography class was always in conflict with one of my many science classes. *side note - as a secretary I use that biology degree just all the time! ha! Actually I need to chase a rabbit here and mention that I don't actually have the degree officially. I still need to finish (read - retake) two 300 level biology/chemistry courses and then I need an art/music credit of sorts. Oh I took the music/art credit but apparently the college LOST the note from the dean stating that Jazz Ensemble credits would actually count for that particular requirement. Because, while I don't mind the actual taking of a course (photography would count!), it's the whole COST factor that bothers me. However, I'm one of those dishonest folks that tell people I have the degree, because seriously, I did 4 years of college, and I took all the classes I needed...I just happened to need to retake some classes as I did not pass with flying colors. Anyway, back to my ADD. So while a photography course has never been in the cards for me, photography itself has been. I take pictures all the time. Unfortunately, the composition of said photos is lacking. I have the damndest time getting folks centered or looking at the camera, or the shot turns out blurry. Or there's a penis in the photo. Whaaat? Ok...so I'm joking about that last one...although given my hubby's experience yesterday, we may have a male ghost in this house just exposing his poker into pictures. We'll see how often it happens. I had a conversation with an actual photographer once who told me that really the key to photography is to just take a LOT of pictures, and then only show people the good ones. The wonders of digital photography is that you can delete the bad ones. Ha! Love it. So, if that's the case, I guess I don't need the photography classes after all. I'll just keep taking loads of pictures and I should get some that turn out ok. Secretly, I always feel like I have a substandard camera and it must be the camera that's causing the problems with my photos. But realistically I have to admit to myself that the problem lies with the person behind the lense. Damn.

So, what next? Well if I was literal with the movie, I could take up cooking! But cooking doesn't appeal to me. I know the basics and if I want something fancy I have my hubby whip it up :) He's amazing in the kitchen. He makes entire meals out of nothing. I don't know how he does it. But I've enjoyed everything he's made. In fact, one of my favorite meals is one in which we basically had no food in the house and he threw together the random things we did have. Wha-la! Dinner. Yum.

Knitting? Well I do that already. It's relaxing. Usually. I have a tendency to be all ADD and miss the actual instructions in front of me and then get annoyed when 12 rounds later I realize what I did, have to take those 12 rounds out and redo it all. Then there's the 13 mo old yanking on the yarn or trying to put the entire project in her mouth. *sigh* Ok, so I do so love to knit, but it isn't as if I could write about my knitting journey or give anyone sensible instruction on it.

Travel? Sure! I love travel! And in fact the very few times I have traveled, and have then written about it, I've been told that I should do it for a living. But alas, it's hard to find someone else to pay for my travel. Not to mention that I would want to tote along my husband and babies. So, if anyone out there would like to pay for a family of four to jaunt about the world and write about it, I'm totally your girl, but I'm not going to hold my breath.

Now, these are only a couple of things that have crossed my brain in th last day or two or three. If I were to go on about everything, I'm sure you'd think I was totally insane. So I suppose that in the end, I'll settle on doing my job (because I rather have to, in order to afford food and clothing and housing and all those things that are necessary for life), knitting when I can, and taking care of my family. Let's face it though...isn't taking care of your family the best purpose to life anyway?